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| 哈哈 ~ 又係好耐冇 update xanga, 係時候寫啲野啦 ~ 不過其實都唔知寫咩好.........因為日日都係返工放工, 得閒出下街, 又唔係好特別嘅 ~ 不過係之前去左海南島囉 ~ 超好玩, 要多謝 miki 的叔叔帶我地周圍去玩 ~ 好開心呀 ~~ 正在打算 x'mas 的時候去荷蘭 ~ yeah ~ 又係去旅行嘅時間啦 ! 最近有同事走啦, 唔拾得佢地呀, 冇左佢同我返工, 我會唔會遲到架? 呢排好多野都要擔心呢 ~ 屋企要裝修, 要搵地方暫住, 跟住工作上又怕做得唔好, 呢排經濟又唔好, 好擔心黎緊會更差, 唉......咁點算好呀? >.< 好多野都要諗, 好多野都好想做, 但係....>< 我只係想去玩咋 ~ hehe ~ 係咪唔明我講咩呢? 咁就好啦, 我唔係咁想俾人明. 死 ! 到自己唔知自己講咩添 ~~ 上哂腦啦 ~ | | |
| Hey ~~ i haven't wrote on xanga for ages, many things happened and decisions need to make. I have to make a huge decision, and it could bother my family, but now, it seems all things have settled down, but still need to finish that, hope everything will work out soon. I know that decision is a little bit selfish or you may think i am a fool, but you will understand why if you were in my shoes. After i have beeing there, i get tired all the time and stop my english classes, stop swimming and feel depress all the time. my close friend has asked me a question which i have asked myself before, she ask "Where is YOU? " right, where is me? it seems that she get lost in a gloomy atmostphere, have lost in the air without any notice. i miss her, i miss who i used to be. i wanna to find her, but don't know how, i feel so damn tired, but still need to pretend happy when facing people. please do not disturb me, i need some place and time to get rest and find ME. And I have been so moody these months, so streesy btw family and work, and also another thing as well, but haha ~~ i know that won't be happened even it was finished, i just knew it and i am trying to accept that for months. However, i still thinking why, thinking any opportunity? what is her intention? but nevermind, it won't bother me again, i am not allowing it bother me again & hurting myself again, it just not worth. But I really to be honest, i lied, i hate u, i hate what u did to me and u are still pretending that you are innocent, how could u do that to a friend? have u ever think about my feelings? although, it doesn't mean so much to me now, but it still have a stick in my heart and make me uncomfortable! i really want to tell you in preson, but u are my frind, i won't hurt u, but u know what, u will never be my close one!! NEVER! | | |
| HAVE YOU EVER
Sometimes it′s wrong to walk away
Though you think it′s over
Knowing there′s so much more to say
Suddenly the moment′s gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just want to change the way the world goes round
Tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I′m sorry
Can′t you see
That′s the way I feel about you and me
Baby have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know
′Cos I loved and lost the day I let (you go)
Can′t help but think that this is wrong
We should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I finally realise
It was forever that I found
I′d give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I′m sorry
Can′t you see
That′s the way I feel about you and me
Baby have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know ( I should know)
′Cos I loved and lost the day I let (you go)
I really want to hear you say
That you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away
Can′t you see
I know the moment′s gone
I′m still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I′m sorry
Can′t you see
That′s the way I feel about you and me
baby have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know (I should know)
′Cos I loved and lost the day I let (you go)
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go
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| 真正愛你的女孩,要你猜那樣,要你猜這樣,
目的想要你知道她在想什麼,想錯她又罵你 "沒事啦!笨蛋" 。
真正愛你的女孩,是你最需要她時候,常裝著冷漠不關心,卻溫柔的問你沒事嗎?
真正愛你的女孩,雖然不知道你喜歡什麼,
也甘心熬夜為你織一條圍巾,摺一大罐的星星。
真正愛你的女孩,經常想打電話給你,卻怕你覺得煩,要你開口才會打給你。
真正愛你的女孩,在朋友面前經常提起你和問你近況,卻否認自己喜歡你。
真正愛你的女孩,因為掛念你,難以入睡。
真正愛你的女孩,在你面前常亳不在意,其實她十分想知道你的心意。
真正愛你的女孩,只要你對她說"我很想妳",
她就會臉紅心跳加速,然後甜甜的笑,對著你說 "笨蛋...你說什麼啊?"
真正愛你的女孩,雖然相隔,她會幻想著你與她的未來而傻笑。
真正愛你的女孩,給你與其他的朋友過你的生日,仍更希望想要你獨自陪她過生日。
真正愛你的女孩,無論你傻或笨的,也會覺得你很酷。
真正愛你的女孩,傷她心,會睡覺前想起你而且不自然的流下淚。
真正愛你的女孩,想告訴你她的心裡的話,但是卻步,因為怕失去你。
真正愛你的女孩,是很多時候不會叫你名字,她會叫你笨蛋、豬頭、喂...
真正愛你的女孩,跟你聊天的時候總會把說話講得亂七八糟的,
是因為她的舌頭在自己深愛的人面前打了很多很多的結。
真正愛你的女孩,是每天在電腦旁等候你上線,然而一看見你的名字,就會不知所措。
真正愛你的女孩,是你告訴她有關於其他女生的事情,
雖然她臉上總是裝著一副不關心的樣子,但是心裡卻是酸酸的。
真正愛你的女孩，是會在你傷害她後，仍然傻傻的等你回頭。
真正愛你的女孩，是會為了你放棄一生幸福的人。
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| 有個男孩子問：怎樣才叫他的真愛，如何取捨？
：『哪個人讓你相處起來快樂自在，哪個人可以讓你大小事情分享不擔憂對方會反對或介意。
哪一個人會在你宣洩情緒的當下馬上傾聽且安慰，讓你自然放下身段的述說自己的缺點』
我想，那是真愛、是適合、是你們比別人更多機會走更長遠的路。
我不知道這樣說對不對，但是，我知道在我以往的愛情經驗裡，
曾經遇過條件很好的人，有共通的興趣甚至價值觀，最後，我們還是選擇當了朋友。
原因無他，因為說不上來的原因讓我們經常為大小事情起爭執口角，
那樣的感覺會同時減弱兩個人的能量，包含愛情。
後來我發現同樣的狀況事件，發生在我和現在男友之間便不再成為問題。
一如渡邊淳一所說：「沒有一個女人是性冷感，如果有，那是因為她遇錯了不適合她的男人。」
同樣的，我要說，『沒有一份真愛會傷人累累，耗損能量，如果有，那是因為你遇錯了人。』
遇錯這件事，很有趣。因為你必須嘗試相處過後才能知道答案。
如果有一天，你跟這個人互相交往很多年，可是很多事有顧忌不能分享，不能一起吃喜歡的食物，
不能討論共同的話題，說不上來快樂不快樂，至多就是沒有太多辛苦，但是午夜夢迴，
你知道心裡就是空了一塊對方碰觸不到，你知道你們曾經相愛但是心不自在。
那麼，你會不會願意離開？願意分手？
願意去相信自己會有真愛，同時也放對方一份新的自由自在？
我認識很多朋友，通常是很難做到這一點，因為，面對真正的自己是最需要勇氣的。
我相信，兩個人之間是互動的一個系統，是一個磁場。
很多部分不是一方努力忍受就可以持續，或者持續就能真的快樂。
一個真的好的對象，不是那些外在條件高達90分的人，
否則你跟張曼玉或劉嘉玲結婚又有甚麼差別？因為有一天，
他們目前的優異條件都可能被另一個人所取代，就像你說的：
『不要安慰自己結婚就好』，不要催眠自己你們之間的問題不是問題。
真愛是不用屈就的，是可以自在舒暢的。
我想，你一定會同意我這句話吧！
這輩子我們可能會遇到很多觀念感覺相近的朋友，
我們會有過一段愛情相伴過那麼一段日子，有人說分手叫緣盡，我倒不那麼認為。
我反倒覺得那是培養你更清楚了解自己並給自己空間的一個過程，你跟人真正的緣分才正要開始。
當你年紀越大越明瞭自己時，你就會知道你要的對象和生活模式，
兩個人的靈魂相伴卻不壓迫，是情人更是一輩子的朋友。
這兩年，我開始學習感覺，用心去感覺。
香草的天空電影裡，不斷重複那句台詞：『open your eyes』。
提醒我們眼睛睜開不過只是看到世俗的判定，看到外在的對錯價值，
然而你心裡的那雙眼呢？是不是看到了綠草如茵，
看到蔚藍的一片遼闊的天，等著你和對方握手去飛翔？
如果見到了，那是因為真愛的名字，叫自在……… | | |
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